MARRYING PLAYFULNESS AND SERIOUSNESS IN CONSCIOUS ENTREPRENEURSHIP (61)

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Okay.

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So I just got off Instagram stories

and I was talking about how I've

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noticed this like pendulum swing

internally as I'm about to show up and,

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create content or even like work on

whatever offer that's been gestating.

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And what I was saying is that this

pendulum swing is like on the far

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left is me, just noticing all the

perfectionism creeping in and wanting

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things to be a certain way and

wanting things to be figured out.

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It's not even like about

being perfect anymore.

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I think I've moved through that.

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It's about like having things figured

out and having almost control over what

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I guess like the strategy of

it and how it's all going to be

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laid out and like what's going to

come next and how it all flows.

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And yeah, I get myself really attached

to this, like, figure it out energy.

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And the other side of the pendulum

is being really vulnerable.

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And.

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I wouldn't say like airing my dirty

laundry, but that's a fear of mine

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of almost being too vulnerable to

the point of sharing stuff that isn't

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fully integrated and it not necessarily

having like value and me not necessarily

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gleaning wisdom from it yet because

I'm still in the middle of it.

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And I recognize that Both of those

are extremes and obviously like

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I'm really intentional about not

showing up from those places.

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I'm just being a radical witness to my

own inner world as I noticed myself kind

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of flip flopping and I can see so clearly

that like I said, they're both, they're

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both extremes and those extremes are quite

harmful because it's self censoring me.

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And it's a disservice to you and my

community because I'm not sharing

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potential gold and, and wisdom because I'm

too busy trying to, I'm overthinking it.

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Really, I'm overthinking it.

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And yeah, like I said, just being

kind of a radical witness to this

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experience and knowing that like, as

I bring awareness to it, it gives me

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an opportunity to make a different

choice and kind of break the patterns

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as I see them happening in real time.

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And so, yeah, I shared all that on

Instagram stories and also reflected

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on literally in real time, as I was

saying it out loud, like, you know,

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Realize that, oh wait, like what's

actually happening here is this,

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this flavor of like wanting to

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reconnect with like a playful

energy, a playful and like innocent

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energy that I used to be able to

show up online with while also

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still like taking things seriously.

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Because I recognize that like,

as I continue to learn, as

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an, as I continue to just.

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Gain more confidence in what I do

and who I can serve and like my

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quote unquote purpose in this world.

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That confidence teeters me into

this like weird pressure of

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wanting to take things seriously.

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Like it makes me not want to fuck up.

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It makes me feel like there's now this

like reputation almost to maintain.

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And I can totally see that

I'm putting that on myself.

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And it's also part of the water we swim

in and the societal conditioning that,

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I mean, has conditioned us to be pretty

perfect and pleasing and kind of have

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our shit figured out before we share it.

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And the bro marketing culture of just

having like this, like perfect strategy

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and like these perfectly executed funnels

and everything's like polished and.

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Anyways, like I can see all that.

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I can see where it's mine

and where it's not mine.

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And what I've kind of just been sitting

with is how this, this is literally it.

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This is why the old paradigm of

business needs to go because it's

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stripping us from being able to

tap into that playful energy.

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It's stripping us from being able to tap

into like our wildness and our, and our

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intuitive nature that that we have access

to, that like creative portal, that open,

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clear channel that we have access to when

we aren't taking things so seriously.

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Because as soon as we're taking

things so seriously, it puts us

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in this like straight and narrow.

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And it like, at least for me, like

it puts me in this energy of like,

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this is how things have to go.

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And I find myself like attaching to

outcomes and attaching to timelines and.

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feeling really unsafe to change my

mind, feeling really unsafe to, to pivot

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or even like jump ship on something.

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And I also recognize that again,

that's the water we swim in.

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We've kind of been taught to follow

through on things and to like push

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through to finish what you started.

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And

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yeah, that is just such

a disservice to our,

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like animal body in the sense of the

connection we have with our intuition

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and the connection that we have to like

our creativity and our like body's wisdom

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Because when we're in that like taking

it too seriously kind of energy We're

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basically suppressing That inner voice

and saying like no whatever you need

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right now doesn't matter because this is

where we're going I almost think of it's

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almost like that like Because I said so

mother energy right like it's This is

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what we're doing because I said so and

there's no room for flexibility There's

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no room for play like you're just it's

rigid and it's oh I can feel like the

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contraction in my body right now just

like thinking about it like it doesn't

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feel good And the thing about content and

offer creation, when we show up in that

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energy, that rigidity and that, that, that

contraction and that, it's almost like

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stale, stale is the word

that's coming to mind.

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That's literally what I'm

like feeling right now.

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It's, it's stale and that

staleness is not magnetic at all.

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It's not attractive.

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Like, I don't want to hang out with.

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Someone that is rigid and stale, and

taking things so seriously that they're

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so in their head that they can't even

pay attention to happening around them.

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And, I put a question box in my stories

earlier today Asking for people to

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share what they think of when they

think of like bro marketing tactics.

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And one of the responses was around

consistency and how, like in the bro

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marketing world, and by the way, the boss

babe world is the bro marketing world.

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The boss babe, boss babe

culture is literally bro

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marketing with a dress on it.

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So you might hear me using both,

both terms kind of interchangeably,

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but in yeah, the boss, boss, babe,

bro marketing world, there's this

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like unspoken rule about consistency

and it's not even unspoken.

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It is absolutely spoken.

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It's an obsession with consistency and

it's consistency to the point of like

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sacrificing your own body and consistency

to the point of Ignoring what's happening

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around you and not being attuned to your

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environment and not just like locally but

like On a micro and macro level right?

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It's not paying attention or giving

space or even like naming Some of the

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greater world events that are happening

and it's like I mean, I'm sure as I'm

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saying this, you can think of examples

where you've seen this happen, right?

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It happens all the time and it's

become so normalized that it's

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literally what's mainstream.

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And so, coming back to this, this

conversation around playfulness and

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like taking things seriously, those

of us that are choosing to find

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play and pleasure in our business,

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are doing things that are

really counter cultural.

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They are not mainstream.

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And so as we're doing them, it

can potentially feel like, Oh my

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God, I'm doing something wrong.

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Like this isn't going to work.

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And like self doubt can start flooding

in and This is where we start gripping

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on to other people's strategies

and wanting like a proven framework

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because it doesn't feel safe to play.

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It doesn't feel safe to be flexible

and pivot and be impulsive.

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Like we, we have been taught like

that impulsivity is irresponsible

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or impulsivity, impulsivity and

like playfulness is not mature,

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it's immature and it's, we also

equate like immaturity and.

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irresponsibility with

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not having success, right?

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We equate success with being mature.

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We equate success with being responsible

and yeah, I just want to name all this

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out loud because this is literally

stuff I'm working on right now where I,

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like I said, I'm noticing this pendulum

and I'm noticing a bit of a block and

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showing up online and not out of like

not wanting to be seen or anything

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like that, but this own like inner.

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Friction of, yeah, these,

these two parts of me at all.

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It's wanting to take things serious

and also wanting to be playful.

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And I absolutely do think that

there is a way to marry both.

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I think I shared this last

week in a podcast episode.

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This, like, give no fuck energy.

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Mixed with deeply giving a shit

and I think that's it, right?

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It's giving no fucks in the sense

of I don't actually care About

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other people's perception of me.

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I don't actually care if they think

I'm absolutely crazy for changing my

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mind again I don't care if they are

making fun of me for I don't know like

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Graphics that don't match and like

a Google Doc for a sales page Like I

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don't actually care or give no fucks

about what other people are thinking

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about me You And I deeply give a shit.

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I deeply give a shit about the work

I'm doing in the world and the people

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that I can impact and the wisdom that

I have to offer and the ripple that

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has, again, on a micro and macro level.

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And so it's this marriage of being really

serious about the impact that my, my

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work, my wisdom, my voice, my medicine can

have on people and tapping into that like

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playfulness give no kind of energy where.

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I'm more concerned about myself and

my own integrity and my own like inner

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peace than I am like what's outside

of me and if you've hung out with me

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for any length of time you know that

I am a recovering good girl and so

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and a recovering people pleaser and

Fawning is absolutely my default nervous

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system response when I'm activated.

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And so this is an edge for me.

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This is a big edge in recognizing where

I'm kind of giving my power away when

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I'm fawning and trying to appease someone

else and trying to like not rock the boat.

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And so this is where that give

no fucks energy is really,

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really potent for me to tap into.

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, I'm just sharing this because I think.

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It's important to name

and I, I really want to,

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I don't even know.

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Again, coming back to that edge

around vulnerability where there's a

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fear that I'm being too vulnerable.

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I also know that vulnerability is one of

my superpowers and I know that sharing

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some of the stuff out loud helps to break

the cycle of silence that you might be

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moving through if you are feeling these

things too, but haven't been able to.

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share it with someone or haven't had the

language to understand it for yourself.

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And so it is really important to me

that I'm sharing this stuff out loud.

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Even if in real time, I'm kind of

finding the wisdom for us as I speak

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it out that that's my medicine.

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And actually, again, literally

hearing myself say that out loud,

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I'm recognizing I'm a self projected

projector and human design.

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Of course, I get wisdom from

hearing myself speak out loud.

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So.

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Oh gosh, that's just a big permission slip

for me to keep talking about this stuff.

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Keep talking about like my own processes

and keep talking about the, the friction

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of my own inner world and the stuff

that I'm witnessing internally because

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yeah, there's medicine here for me.

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There's medicine here for you.

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There's medicine here for the collective.

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And so that's all for today.

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I'm so glad you're here.

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If you've been kind of connecting and

vibing with some of the stuff I've

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been sharing lately, just around.

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Like breaking up with hustle culture and

laying like the boss babe mindset and bro

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marketing stuff to rest and just kind of

untangling self worth and productivity.

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I have some very exciting

offers coming up.

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I'm working on a podcast series

called boss babe funeral.

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Cause I know I'm not the only one where

even though I haven't identified as a boss

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babe, I never had that like boss babe era.

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I stepped into entrepreneurship being

very intentional about not showing up to

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my business in that way and being very

intentional about not yeah, just kind

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of perpetuating this hustle and grind.

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culture that exists and being

very conscious about the way

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I've built my business thus far.

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I can still feel where, like I

said, it's the water we swim in.

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So even though I'm not needing to have

a funeral for my inner boss babe because

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she doesn't exist, I'm ready to have

a funeral for the collective boss babe

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culture because it still seeps in.

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It still makes me.

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self doubt myself.

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It still makes me think like, oh my god,

like why is this so counter cultural?

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Why isn't everyone else

talking about this?

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Why does this feel so crazy?

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So yeah, stay tuned for that.

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And then I'm also hosting a

fucking retreat in January.

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I can't believe I just said that out loud.

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More to come on that.

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It is totally unconventional, no plane

tickets needed, no accommodations

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needed because it's all virtual.

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It just feels really, really juicy

for the time of year and for the women

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that I'm calling into the container

because y'all don't need more training,

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you don't need more business strategy,

you don't need really more of anything

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except for the space to reconnect

with yourself and really tend to and

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nourish and attune to your inner world.

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We know that our outer World is just

a reflection of our inner world.

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So we really need to start focusing

on that as our quote unquote strategy

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for the success and the abundance

and the, the time freedom and the

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whatever else you're moving after,

whatever you're calling in, it all

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starts with like those internal shifts.

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And so I'm really envisioning this

retreat being like soul nourishing,

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regenerative, reparative, expansive.

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And I keep having this visual of

like all these loose threads that

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I'm sure so many of us have already

been working at untangling, right?

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If you've been on a self acclimation

journey or spiritual awakening or

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any kind of like healing journey,

you have all these threads that

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you've been kind of working on.

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untangling and now they're just like here

ready to be woven into something new.

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And this is what I'm, I'm dreaming up

for this retreat is, is tying these

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loose ends together and weaving a new

reality and yeah, just really reclaiming

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our power and calling in what's ours and

moving towards a business and a life.

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With less extraction and less

hustle and more play and again,

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marrying that give no fuck kind of

energy with deeply giving a shit.

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And when that's fused together, what

does that mean for our business?

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What does that mean for the

type of offers we create?

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What does that mean for the way

we market and the way we sell

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and the way we show up online?

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And so.

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This retreat is not

more business strategy.

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It is for entrepreneurs who are really

wanting to attune and tend to their

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inner world and uncensor their, their

wild woman and their wildness because

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I think that wildness is where we

can tap into that playfulness and

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that, that portal of creativity.

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And our wise woman is

our inner wild woman.

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And so we, we're all

wanting more strategy.

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We're all wanting more wisdom and we

keep looking outside of ourselves for it.

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But really it's, it's inner wild woman.

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Our wild woman is our wise woman.

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Say that five times fast.

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Okay.

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So stay tuned.

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Some really exciting things

happening in my world.

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And DM me on Instagram.

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You only connect with me

in some way, whatever way.

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feels good for you and let me know if

you're excited about these things because

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it really does help me just stay on

track not in a people pleasing kind of

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way but in a like like excitement is

contagious right and I obviously want

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you to feed off my excitement because

it's real it's genuine but I also feed

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off yours so yeah let me know validate

me let me know if this stuff is lighting

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you up as much as it is for me and if

it feels like exactly what you need

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in this season of life and business.

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Okay.

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Thanks for listening.

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da.

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Heee.

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What would you say?

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Hi.

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What would you want to talk about?

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ABCDs.

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ABCDs?

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You'd want to talk about the alphabet?

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Hmm.